Thursday, April 28, 2011
New Record
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
"Don't say sorry so easily"
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Pre-exam Craze; Rant against irrational Modernism.
BEGINNINGless
moment of spontaneous outflow of emotion,
what are Words worth if--
I admit, nasty stupid pun-- blame
the modernist prose, the sight of block-age.
(ANOTHER PUN! HEHEHE)
Tiresias can't look, yet sees
the confusion, through all,
at the inability-- disgusting core, Matthew Arnold would say-- to voice,
(WHAT does Gypsy Scholar do for you? Does it animate?)
to please? Perhaps, if Eliot's fame was-- no, IS-- so
it does boggle the mind in a most terrible
and irritating way. Discordant noise, jumbling
the mind and freezing over a jaw grinding
its teeth in frustration
HOW SHOULD I STUDY THIS when
it is so meant to create such a terrible mess
and to horrify with a decay and confusion
of perspective and time;
HURRY UP NOW IT'S TIME.
HURRY UP NOW IT'S TIME.
'Well I say you are a fool'
Infertile brain, curs'd with fertile womb
but brain is the root, and so since the seed
will also make the womb infertile
HEHEHE.
HURRY UP NOW IT'S TIME.
exam! Scourge like a cruel master,
cruel schoolmaster, Choak'umchild,
he, ha, hehe,
HURRY UP NOW IT'S TIME
EXAM! . . . . . Woolf's five dots in her
insane asylum room, translates
to me because I need five minutes of stupefaction
as well,
NO TIME. IT'S TIME. IT'S TIME.
Good night, good night (I am tired, I say)
NO, it's exam time!
Wordsworth scowls, saying
I say recollection in tranquility, why
do you not follow my rules
(When he himself did not! Did he not
rebel against the suffocating society?! Running
away to nature? Much better? I think not!
Scourge me not, you are no skylark! Anger me
like Woolf’s narrator in the Room— ARE you angry, Wordsworth
or it that all in my mind!?— wandering in the clouds?)
If I should write with this shuddering
and insanity at my exam, I shall certainly get a zero
Or some other mark
nasty and forever until I am wrinkled like a prune,
no, less: like a raisin. Small, small!!
no, no, no, please.
Foreshadowing is such a terrible thing,
Literature is not life though!
Although, would you not agree it's a mirror?
no, no, no!
Said Philomel too before despair took
her tongue, but not
her substance, her brain
BUT NO WORDS AND SO HER SUBSTANCE UNANNOUNCED
and unmarked, until she turned to a bird.
Fly, fly, let me fly, please--
HURRY UP NOW IT'S TIME.
Thursday, April 7, 2011
GS: Dark Dawn Rant
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Studying
What. a. bummer.
Anyway, on Studying... WHY DID I TAKE FRENCH?
WHAAAAAAAIIII?
Seriously, I have an oral on the 6th and an exam on the 13th. Easy or not, I feel like.... it's just so out of place with the rest of my courses.
I guess I should review French today? and just write the oral.
...Yeah. Shower or not? Except I have no more conditioner. Well, only a little bit...
I also woke up at 10 today, but I fell back asleep until 1. Wtf. =.=
Although to be fair to myself, now that I think about it, I think when I woke up earlier my eyes were poofy like mad. I didn't even open them properly.
No more computer before bedtime.
Ahaha, well okay, it's not the first time I've set this resolution, but this is definitely a reminder...