What is naivety anyway.

Dear Stranger,

In my culture, there's this term called Naivety, and those who are naive when they are below the age of ten or so are termed cute, and it's seen as normal.

Somewhere along the line, once they reach fourteen or so, naivety becomes no longer an excuse, depending on the mistake done.

If the mistake is big enough, or sometimes that isn't even necessary, you receive a lot of "hate".

Hatred is such a weird thing. Why do people find it so good to piss on people? That petty hatred... it makes me think those people aren't capable of true love.

Of course I have hated before, and still hate. And you can only hate when you love. Truly love, truly hate.

Sorry, divergence...

But what is naivety, stranger? Because in our lands, every mistake can be a naivety couldn't it? Or just ignorance, non-seeing.

Hm.. brain isn't functioning properly and my fingers are cold. 5:13 in the morning.

Good ...night? Going to hit the bed?

After I brush my teeth and all the rituals...

God, what is Naivety? What is conforming? What is good and bad? It's like I live in a cauldron, in a giant whirling mass of colour everywhere, but ultimately giving a monocoloured feel. Sort of like the noise of an old television...

Life

A few anchors in my mind (that is, no matter what philosopher or logic tries to derail me, I will kill it):
- Family importance (namely, parents). Not even necessarily my parents than the abstract of them.
- Life is better than death.

I wish there were more, but anyway, having anchors themselves make me feel secure.

So even if I am unsure about everything else, in regards to the second one:
Because life is better than death, and because I don't know whether life is filled with wretchedness or blessings, my resolution is:
1) See the blessings more.
2) Strangle every bit of nectar I can from life and suck it dry.

MEMEME.
Even if I love, it's for me. I know this.
Even if I love selflessly, I get gratification, therefore it is selfish. Even though my actions are selfless (or perceived so).

It's a bit frustrating, life, that's all.

Unhappy (but, as expected, after writing I feel better)

I want to type I am "unhappy" right now.

But really I guess I should just type I am procrastinating right now, and therefore have time to think too much. My mental image of mom does not approve.

Anyway, to make fun of myself, I guess I will say why I am unhappy... so I can laugh at them and get back to work.

1) I am attracted to relationships (relating back to the last post), even if I acknowledge I won't get in one in the near future. Probably won't? Anyway. Point is, I went on AKP and saw the post about Sunye in a relationship and saw Dora's photo on FB with her boyfriend (which is good) but... augh, I just felt a pang of loneliness. And really, Karen, that's... not really "silly" as my fingers want to type, but just... not helpful. And not really useful. And therefore discardable! *discards* Okay.

2) I got charged a fine on overdue library books when I thought I renewed them. Wtf. Okay. But I will have to go home and come back with the books. Sigh... might as well work in the library. Maybe I'll work in the stairwell, since I like the (yeah, strange) smell of cold concrete? I don't actually know what the smell is, but it's the smell on the jogging track, the ice rink and in the library stairwell, oddly enough.

3) Got to finish my 2301E assignment. FINISH IT... I can do this. This guy in my 3421E class could finish a 1000 word essay no problem... actually, I think I can too... 2000 isn't actually that difficult. I'm on 700 and I'm only halfway through my first argument. I just need to focus. Sometimes I wish I could have fans or something (clearly submerged in K-pop way too freaking long) to encourage me. I don't have that, but I do have friends. Hmm.. leading to point 4...

4) I think I am submerged in loneliness again. Seriously I think it might just be my PMS (POSTmenstrual syndrome though, in this case) because I get that. Or it might be that I lack sleep, running on 2 hours and fear of caffeine messing up my body for good. But... yeah... I feel lonely. It's strange because I grew up with a lot of love from my parents, and it's not like I grew up with loads of friends so I should be used to it by now, but I guess...

Honestly though, this type of loneliness, it's not like I want to share it with anybody. Or... I wouldn't mind sharing it, and it would probably be therapeutic to do so...

In this huge world, how do we manage to be this lonely? What the hell?

But... yeah. I'm okay.

I'm okay :D

I'll be my own biggest fan. That sounds pathetic, but seriously... it has to work like that. It works like that for everyone, even the performers with the most fans, I think.

I guess I'll start stalking other bloggers. For some reason this internet voyeurism makes me feel less lonely. Except the bloggers sort of want others to read their stuff, right?

I wonder if people who go to prostitutes feel the same as I do, right at this moment?

Wow. What a strange thought. But entirely plausible, I think.

Thoughts on being Single

Okay, so to pre-empt, this may make me sound retarded. As in slow.

But just a note to self... I think... I should write down (and set in clay, if not stone) how I feel about being a single, 20 year old girl.

I think... I finally love myself to just enjoy it.

I have been examining this thought more seriously, and I really think it's not just a "Well, I don't have a boyfriend so it's okay to be single" reaction. ... Or not just that anyway. Because I really, really, do not want to be a desperate person. Relationship-desperate people are never attractive, and really, especially if they're women/girls.

And it's just gross. I don't want to be a gross person.

But I've been moving from that revelation which I reached years ago to this one... where it's just, I like being single too. I like pampering myself and buying stuff for myself. I like loving me. And that sounds really vain... but really.

I mean, I would love, I won't deny by any means, to meet the right person for me and embark on a relationship. But... I think I like being single too.

Honestly I think I've thought of this before. But in a high school and university environment, sometimes you forget (either because you're envious/awkward watching kissing/loving couples-- unless, of course, you got that one (or two) friend and her boyfriend and they're like, ridiculously cute together and then you really feel awkward but happy for them over envy-- or you're busy as a hamster running to keep herself on top of a constantly growing snowball so not to get killed by an avalanche).

Anyway, I guess this was a reminder. Now back to work.

EXTRA EXTRA Original title: Random List of Stuff about Me.

1. I'm 20 years old.

2. I have no boyfriend (or girlfriend, to pre-empt), I do have an imaginary (friend?) lover who I refer to as My Jealous Mistress, who is my creative literary muse. I have an amorphous relationship with her, it is perhaps amorous where I simultaneously adore and hate her. She is faithful to me, but jealous, and will not love me unless I am devoted to her.

3. As far as I know, I am straight. But since I am easily influenced by others, and classic literature denotes Muse as a woman, my Muse is a woman.

4. I am increasingly undergoing mental sparagmos as I age and mature. I am unsure whether this is like other people, or unlike other people (i.e. the general population) although I feel, as I am writing this, it is unlike others. Granted, my condition is not constant, i.e. I am focused at times. Usually after I talk to my mom.

5. I like talking to my mom. Generally speaking.

6. I love my parents. Not really sure about my brother. I am not even sure if he is legally sane (i.e. if he is insane, then I can't judge him by "normal standards") and sometimes I imagine to be this mental dysfunct. It makes my skin crawl and I want to protect my parents and me from him. This is not out of normal sibling rivalry, although I can't deny or admit to it being a possible factor to my feeling towards him.

7. I am introverted. I.e. I prefer thinking by myself. It is not that I am necessarily a private person (for example, I wouldn't mind anyone commenting on this post) but I just wouldn't promote it (LOOK HERE enter friend's name AT WHAT I WROTE). Although most of the time I think I would love to share my stories. But I feel I hate it when people impose on me their stories, so I shall not to the same, unless asked.

8. I am learning how to be a Good Person. It sounds easy, but it's really hard. Last week I defended the integrity of a sport against an acquaintance. It felt good, since usually I would just keep quiet and think the person was a bigot.

9. I think the world is deeply superficial. (You make think it's common sense, but some people don't... I think.) I think there is an ideal I would like to be, physically and mentally... but I wonder whether the Ideal would be Me, if I were to consciously emulate it. Is growth by emulation natural if it's done consciously? Why is natural growth important? (Because conscious ingenuity to oneself is like an eyesore, like a neon, pornographic picture in the peripheral vision of a Titian painting... and I cannot accept it. Nor, I think, can a lot of people.)

10. I think sometimes my insistent cling to genuineness is a defence of my low position on the superficiality scale. I think this is the way it is perceived by some people too (although of course, not everyone, thankfully. But how much of the general population, I am not sure.) But I also think parts of my genuineness is genuine. But how big of a slice that is, I am not sure.

11. I think showing genuine thought is dangerous. I feel like it'd scare away many people. I also think discussion about such solemn (if I may call it that) topics is depressing, which is why I prefer not to dwell on them, because I do not want to be depressed (generally, although sometimes it's like good wine. For example, I don't mind a little nostalgia once in a while). Also because there is the superficial reason that I know I do not want to be associated as a "depression-bringer."

12. Did I just refer to superficiality as basic human interaction skill? I suppose, however, that is what ultimately superficiality is based from. The construction of your persona which interacts with other people.

13. This was fun, but I have class now. Maybe I'll post this up on Facebook (what does that say about what I just said? Really...)

Anger is blocking my ability to study

I feel so angry with my midterm that it's blocking my ability to study. I keep on thinking how picky my professor was with words.

I got a 70 on my midterm, which I felt was definitely a higher quality than a 70. Am I overestimating myself? Or is this some fucking conspiracy where the professor is like this and I am just forced to ask her for a higher mark if I need? I know it sounds like I am overthinking... but...

I really have a difficult time believing my paper was worth a 70. Like, objectively speaking. The level of pickiness of it when the idea is clearly indicated...

*breathe... breathe...* I know that this exam I really just HAVE to say... everything. Watch my significance paragraphs.

As for the two essays. Oh man. Wow, I don't know. I really thought that deserved higher too.

But let me think... Shorter answers. Specific examples. Clearer sentences.

SHUT UP

I just look at my depressed self and all I want to say.... no, all I am going to say is:....

...shut up.

WHY YOU DEPRESSED. KNOW YOUR SHIT AND JUST DO IT. STOP THINKING YELLING AT YOURSELF IS BAD. BECAUSE YELLING AT YOURSELF IS LIKE YELLING TO YOURSELF TO WAKE UP, NOT YELLING BECAUSE YOU'RE IDIOTIC. WHY DO PEOPLE YELL ANYWAYS?

ARE YOU SUGGESTING YOU DON'T LOVE YOURSELF? SERIOUSLY, I KNOW IT'S NOT TRUE, I AM FUCKING IN LOVE WITH MYSELF. NO, REALLY. I REALLY AM.

JUST. DO. IT. NOT SLUDGE THROUGH IT..... BUT COME TO GRASP WITH REALITY AND JUST DO IT.

:) Much better. Tomorrow, go find jobs.

Depression

is driving me insane. Might be because of work.

No energy. And grumpy all the time.

Thinking about it makes me... not sad, but... depressed.

And that gets me angry. Ai... WTF. Better something to do than nothing.

Picture:

A woman and a girl are looking at each other. "One of them is a liar." - somewhere on the page.

So it comes to this.

So tomorrow my summer school starts.

Got to hand out those resumes tomorrow.

And sell those keyboards, so I will have to go to Post Office to check out how much it cost to sell those things.

And also, was watching f(x) Pinocchio when I realized...how young those girls were. And they are already entertainers... in crazy outfits. Do they want this?

...Anyway. that got me thinking: there is a lot of ways people think in this world.

But... ultimately, I think people are in search of the truth... What really works... for themselves...?

...Too lazy to continue thinking, apparently. Time to get ready to sleep.

The Keyboards

So I have been home a few days: and I have been using my browns more.

What can I say? I sort of saw it coming that I wouldn't be able to part with either.

...Actually, that might not be true. I think if I were to part with one then I would part with the browns over the blues, since the blue are special.

But the brown...I guess they can sort of be like...my... normal keyboard? Or keyboard when I am sort of really tired... because while I was clicking on my blues in university I realized that it can get tiring.

Or am I just seriously weak sauce...

Maybe I'll sell both and get a topre or something instead. Clearly I am a lazy bum.

And thinking about it. I am not sure anymore. Augh.

102 words

typing test

New Record

98 words

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Can't wait until I get 100 + Please. :)

101 words

free online typing test

And I just did on my second try- woot!

Also met Paige on the bus today :) Good news on my English exam, apparently, and she also like Victorian literature and seems to recommend it-- which is awesomeness :)

"Don't say sorry so easily"

I don't know why this suddenly popped up in my head.

But from my summer internship two years ago, I think this is the thing that stuck out most in my mind. A co-worker of mine said to me: "Don't say sorry so easily. It makes the word lose meaning when you really mean it."

But I can't help but say it so often. I really make and effort to try not to do it...but.. it still slips.

Still, I guess I am glad I say it less now? Or at least I remember...

Typing on my new Leopold Cherry MX Blues now... to be honest, I know they're supposed to use less force than my MBP scissor switches, but I can't help but feel like they're heavier anyway- and that I seem to make a lot more mistakes on them.

But I know without the mistakes I can type at a higher rate than my scissor switches.

As to the sound-- I really don't have a comment. I wonder if I will like the brown switches more?

I keep on looking for excuses to type on these keyboards lately it seems...

Okay. Time for a nap and then hopefully the sun will be out tomorrow, bright and energizing!

If not... augh.. I don't know...

I plan to study about economics and science revolution tomorrow.

94 words

typing test

-- New high score for self. Okay. Time to shower.

Pre-exam Craze; Rant against irrational Modernism.

BEGINNINGless

moment of spontaneous outflow of emotion,

what are Words worth if--

I admit, nasty stupid pun-- blame

the modernist prose, the sight of block-age.

(ANOTHER PUN! HEHEHE)

Tiresias can't look, yet sees

the confusion, through all,

at the inability-- disgusting core, Matthew Arnold would say-- to voice,

(WHAT does Gypsy Scholar do for you? Does it animate?)

to please? Perhaps, if Eliot's fame was-- no, IS-- so

it does boggle the mind in a most terrible

and irritating way. Discordant noise, jumbling

the mind and freezing over a jaw grinding

its teeth in frustration

HOW SHOULD I STUDY THIS when

it is so meant to create such a terrible mess

and to horrify with a decay and confusion

of perspective and time;

HURRY UP NOW IT'S TIME.

HURRY UP NOW IT'S TIME.

'Well I say you are a fool'

Infertile brain, curs'd with fertile womb

but brain is the root, and so since the seed

will also make the womb infertile

HEHEHE.

HURRY UP NOW IT'S TIME.

exam! Scourge like a cruel master,

cruel schoolmaster, Choak'umchild,

he, ha, hehe,

HURRY UP NOW IT'S TIME

EXAM! . . . . . Woolf's five dots in her

insane asylum room, translates

to me because I need five minutes of stupefaction

as well,

NO TIME. IT'S TIME. IT'S TIME.

Good night, good night (I am tired, I say)

NO, it's exam time!

Wordsworth scowls, saying

I say recollection in tranquility, why

do you not follow my rules

(When he himself did not! Did he not

rebel against the suffocating society?! Running

away to nature? Much better? I think not!

Scourge me not, you are no skylark! Anger me

like Woolf’s narrator in the Room— ARE you angry, Wordsworth

or it that all in my mind!?— wandering in the clouds?)

If I should write with this shuddering

and insanity at my exam, I shall certainly get a zero

Or some other mark

nasty and forever until I am wrinkled like a prune,

no, less: like a raisin. Small, small!!

no, no, no, please.

Foreshadowing is such a terrible thing,

Literature is not life though!

Although, would you not agree it's a mirror?

no, no, no!

Said Philomel too before despair took

her tongue, but not

her substance, her brain

BUT NO WORDS AND SO HER SUBSTANCE UNANNOUNCED

and unmarked, until she turned to a bird.

Fly, fly, let me fly, please--

HURRY UP NOW IT'S TIME.

GS: Dark Dawn Rant

Okay, so I just went on GameFAQs

And seriously, I don't like being a hater... but like most old people I worry about the new generation.

Seriously, did no one who played Dark Dawn find it sucks? Seriously?!

I don't feel like I'm qualified to rant on it immediately, because I played it around Christmas or something... or Reading Week (so either over a month or four months ago) and I don't remember quite wtf I didn't like about.

Yeah, because I don't remember anything about it. Because it wasn't memorable. Seriously with GS and GS:TLA I replayed it like... a lot. I won't say 50 times- 'cause that's just ridiculous but at least.... thrice? 5 times? I don't know. A lot, for a game. And each time was somehow still enjoyable (although not a manic sort)

With Dark Dawn, I got bored over halfway? Or confused? I felt like I was dragged. I don't mind the basic gist of it: a troubled world as a background, and young'uns go on a quest-- only to get embroiled in something bigger. Fine. That's a trope which works.

But not in the way it was presented. By god, I know Camelot maybe has other games under development and they were rushed to push out GS... but in 7 years, this is what they come with? Where is my smooth sailing, easy but exciting ferrying of the story? Of execution? It says something when a game/story is finished but you replay/reread it. And moreso you replay/reread is more than once.

With Dark Dawn I felt like I was lost, I was bored. And it's not just "oh so much dialogue." The beauty of GS series in the GBA version was that there was so much "damned dialogue." They developed the characters (and yeah, you could imagine the silent protagonist. Personally I fancied it, eventually you get used to it and it's just how they roll. And it helps when you're a fan fiction writer and you can have so much control over how you develop the character)

But the poor execution of it was... well, poor. I felt like things were jumping from one thing to the next, and there were loads of unresolved shit... which remained unresolved at the end. I can't say what they were exactly... (which is weak argument, but seriously I don't give a shit to play the game again to "rant properly") but seriously. Dark Dawn made me feel like a drowning victim rather than bating my breath for the sequel (which better happen, given the blatant ending, obviously) unlike GS.

I didn't feel attached to any of the characters and I felt like they just popped out forcedly out of nowhere. There were 8 characters out of nowhere? What? That priestess girl from Izumo...Miki or something? WHY DID SHE APPEAR AT ALL? Totally useless, just get her function to a psynergy device or something. Did Felix and gang find another adept just to use lash? No, they found a Lash Crystal. -- Okay, going off point. But I hope I'm making sense. Then again, I'm a story junkie. I guessed it could be something like: "Ooooh, different sprite! Different psynergies! Different stats/growth!" but yeah, clearly, idgaf about that so... well.

And also, the game took me 20-some hours to finish? 23? 25? ...I can't tell whether that's a good thing. It just seemed to me TLA took a LOT longer? ... Oh well, I suppose I should really compare it with GS, which I don't remember how long I spent on... >_> Ah well. But seriously, why was it so easy to defeat Star Magician? It boggled my mind. And why was it so easy to level up? It was ridiculous ... I think I ended up being lvl 50 or something? Wtf?

Anyway, as a fan of the original GS series, I shall fittingly conclude this with an understatement: I was underwhelmed. Completely underwhelmed.

Good night.

Studying

And to answer my last post, I went with the last minute decision of Cherry MX Browns!... Of course I'm fully expecting that thing to come by April 20-something realistically speaking.

What. a. bummer.

Anyway, on Studying... WHY DID I TAKE FRENCH?
WHAAAAAAAIIII?
Seriously, I have an oral on the 6th and an exam on the 13th. Easy or not, I feel like.... it's just so out of place with the rest of my courses.
I guess I should review French today? and just write the oral.

...Yeah. Shower or not? Except I have no more conditioner. Well, only a little bit...

I also woke up at 10 today, but I fell back asleep until 1. Wtf. =.=
Although to be fair to myself, now that I think about it, I think when I woke up earlier my eyes were poofy like mad. I didn't even open them properly.

No more computer before bedtime.
Ahaha, well okay, it's not the first time I've set this resolution, but this is definitely a reminder...

About Typing and Keyboards

You know, I still haven't gotten a damn keyboard.
And I think the urge has died down now... it's time to think.
Yes, I think I do want a keyboard.
Do I want a clicky or a non-clicky one though?
Originally I have thought clicky for sure...
But I mean, do I even notice how clicky it is when I am typing on my scissor switches? I'm also listening to the Cherry MX Brown switches on Youtube. Each keyboard and video sounds a little bit different, but ultimately it's the click...sound which is there and not....


I think I should still get the Blues though... because I think having the clicky feeling is important?
But if I get browns, I needn't worry about paying $30 extra for the otaku sets.
That reminds me of whether I actually need the otaku set.

...Augh....
I wish someone could just tell me...

Good thoughts (Can't wait for summer)

Good tea is sex (that is legit what I thought when I smelled my earl gray, and drank it, and gave a natural, irrepressible sigh of satisfaction.)
(Then I thought:)
Good keyboard is sex.
Real quills are sex.
Cleanness, books, sunlight, wood... mm... oh yes.




Oh and wtf, just found him yesterday, but Matt Wertz's voice is also....
Just happiness. Thanks. :)

FUCKKKKK

Essays and missing tutorials and outstanding fees.
WHAT THE FUCK MAN.

LIFE WTF.

Science Students (sometimes) piss me off.

...despite being friends with quite a few of them.

Let's ignore totally ignorant asses like Derek. But even then, the ones that are okay most of the time are not when you reach the science superiority complex thing.
It's like innate? They think they got more secure prospects ("WHAT the hell are you going to do in history?") and that science makes sense, it contributes to the world, etc. etc.

This is so fucking tiring.
WHAT world are you contributing to?
WHAT lens do you look through at the world? And asses like Derek don't count. You know the one, they watched or read too much damn fiction/anime about emotionless, logical characters and want to emulate them because they think that's attractive (mentally and/or otherwise). And then they worship scientists who "revolutionized" the world by putting the world into pure logic.
To these boys and gells: Just saying, the "Scientific Revolution" came partly from Alchemy, okay. And Newton was a mystic of sorts.
No, that's right, I'm serious.
But I mean seriously, I don't even need to tell anyone what a whack Einstein was, right?

But yeah, these people? My pet peeve.

"I wonder if Naruto is coming out next week? " ? And then some explanation to defend about economy will help Japan.

I might be overthinking, as per usual, but there are two things.
1) The explanation is bull.
2) The assholeness is intentional. So they can smear shit with logic's name and then give the bullcrap explanation.

But let's give him the benefit of the doubt that the assholeness was sincere, as in, Derek was sincere in thinking purely how lost life cannot be regained (no shit, sherlock) and economics will help rebuild Japan.
Where the fuck is the emotion? A person cannot maintain to live by without emotion and compassion. I don't believe they can, unless you're sociopathic. And even then, (dare I trespass with my opinions unsupported and un-reasearched into this field) I don't know how sociopath's brain function, although I'm sure some psychology student will enlighten me... but how certain is it, exactly?
Okay, complete digression. Anyway, yeah, so stop pretending. Poser of nothing good here, run along and emulate someone else.

Smaller peeving moments:

"Non science students are not human." or something.
My reaction: Is that a joke? What? That doesn't even make sense. Scientifically speaking.

Picture of a naked mole rat baring its teeth:
Him: "What you think this looks like?"
Me: "Looks like a cornered mole rat."
Him: "Ah, what do you know, you're an English major."
1) I'm a HISTORY major.
2) ...W...t...f? This is a logic fail? I'm not a science student so I can't tell the rat's expression? Great, so if I see an angry dog, clearly I'd approach it. And pat it. On the nose. And brush its teeth because it's baring them at me, right?!
I'm sure according to Darwin then, we'll all die soon because we can't tell angry animal faces.
But stereotypically, aren't history students more sensitive to these sort of things anyway?


I'm not saying all science students are like this, of course. But I'd say 9 out of every 10 at least? ...Does this get better with age or is it just because I'm in university and I'm still young or some shit like that?

Seriously kids, stop looking at the world through a loophole.

Honestly.

If only typing and thinking was the same sort of thing

80 words

speed typing test

If only I typed the RIGHT words, then I shouldn't mind essays at all. 2000/80 = 25.

That would mean I spent 25 minutes on one essay.

Ambition

Too ambitious for exercising my brain in a university? Right.

Of course I don't understand the world I live in. The moment I do I'm screwed. More screwed than I am now, which is quite unimaginable and definitely unwanted.

Why I haven't thought of this before...

... I will never understand. Because I have plenty of snark in my head-- always had (I remember I was in grade 4 or 5 once? And I kept on muttering this phrase of snark in the Archie's comic, something about "Who do you think you are, Agatha Christie?" and some older boy heard me) and it's no coincidence, probably, I find smirking arrogance attractive (or absolutely repulsive in a sometimes fascinating way, when one hasn't the right to that)

Anyhow... what was in my head?

Right, something along the lines of:

Girl 1: So you never make fun of anyone? (Or something of the sort: Why don't you ever make fun of anyone?)
Girl 2 : Well, I just don't make fun of anyone to anyone. Discrimination, you know. I reckon anyone who never makes fun of anyone ever is reserving her real estate in heaven. She'd never get any on Earth.

For Better or Worse,

For better or worse, we are responsible for ourselves to what we are conscious of.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/programmes/hardtalk/9080028.stm

Memorable quote:
"... But there is [sic] something I haven't lost... the freedom of choosing what kind of person I want to be. And that was very important, because at that moment I was really fearing that because of the treatment we were having they could just harm what I thought was the good part of me... I didn't want to become thirsty of revenge and to be filled with hatred."

What admirable strength.

Beauty

Beauty is important because it's how one has friends.
Goodness is what makes an acquaintance.
Intelligence an enemy.

I never would have thought I'd agree to Wilde on this. But after thorough thinking, this may be the case.

Of the Two Blogs...

So I just spent plenty of time deciding out of my two blogs, which one to blog in. I guess I am sticking with this one, even though my other one had some pretty good posts (yes, and since I write and read all of them... clearly I am just a narcissist? Ah well, I should be confident I can continue writing just as sincerely anyhow. And this one is chronologically correct anyhow...)

Or probably because I am just a very lazy person.
Sloth is sin.

Watched Dorian Gray. Ben Barnes + Victorian suit? Aarrrrgh~ <3 Even though I was creeped half the time. Scaredy-cat? Yeah, I'm not going to even try to deny that.

Anyway, SDC Volunteering opportunities are coming up. I should do that. And other finance office stuff, T4A forms and whatnot...

EDIT:
Amazing, I just imported it. Excellent, now it won't have a stupid name.
And I can switch back and forth.
*taps fingers together at the tips* Excellent...~

たたかい

Fight.
Be aggressive.
I have a strange impulse: the impulse to be submissive and rely on the kindness of people.
Seriously. Not to be a cynical bitch, but that is a very, very stupid way to live.

"Fight" isn't exactly the right word, but there's no reason to be a doormat and just feel grateful when people don't step on you.
Nonsensical at all. Clearly.